Hey y'all! I'm trying to figure out my next move as I finish up (thank god, the universe, my ancestors) my time as an AmeriCorps member with Habitat for Humanity. They weren't terrible, but this full-time-job life is terrible for my health.
As I write this, I'm recovering from my second (known) covid infection, and I'm feeling unsettled thinking about what's to come once I don't have a rent stipend in the expensive ass, but oh so homey, Bay Area. I want to stay here, but I also don't mind heading out, especially if it means I can save money. I also don't know if I'm truly ready for the Bay and what it means to be here. There's so much community building happening here, and that’s what's amazing and drew me to the Bay initially, but I think I need to continue building my sense of self.
SO I’M ON THE MOVE??
I've been thinking about heading to Little Rock, Arkansas—which feels hella random, but it actually seems kinda in line with what I want: small city/big town vibes, lots of Black folks, feeling comfortable walking around outside, but not v tempted to go out so I can avoid a third bout of covid. That's the energy I get on paper, but please please please let me know if you've been to Little Rock or know people who has lived (or even visited) the city because I really would be going with NO peer-reviewed clue.
I'm also looking into Eugene and Portland, Oregon. I have said to many people in the past that I would never move to Portland, OR….and here we are….me having lil daydreams living in North- or Southeast Portland working at a credit union as a part-time bank teller with my lil kn95 and personal portable air purifier.
I've literally spent hours on hours looking through Zillow, apartments.com, and google maps to set the scenes for these daydreams. I can't even make
flowers seen in Portland photographed by EJ in Aries Szn 2023
true moves until maybe next month, but my lil Aries-rising brain is ready to make decisions and my Taurus-sun body is ready to feel secure and grounded again for at least 9 months. Honestly, at this point, I kinda want to find a place that I could stay for even 2 years (??) just to really feel that security.
If you have any ideas, input, or space to talk through my rollercoaster of thoughts and daydreams, please reach out! If you know my number text me or email us [email protected]
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